Take every chance. Drop every fear.

Another short post - Just wanted to update! I took my trigger on the 29th of January (CD13) so we're counting today (Feb. 2) as 2dpo! I've had nausea since my last femara pill on Jan. 23rd (CD7), and the day after the trigger, it was 10x worse! Every time I eat I feel like its about to come back up. I read online that sometimes the side effects of the trigger can last up to two weeks after the shot. Maybe if we're lucky it will continue, and we'll finally have a BFP?! 

I'll be totally honest - I am not feeling this cycle. I think it has a LOT to do with this being our first cycle on a new medication, first time using the Ovidrel, etc., and I have read faaaar too many posts about how I shouldn't expect my body to respond the first time I take a new drug. Or maybe its let down after let down after let down that has severely damaged my optimism? Who knows.

I have plans to test on Feb. 14th, since that will be 14DPO, IF my cycle hasn't started.A and I do NOT celebrate Valentines Day, but maybe we could actually have something to celebrate this year. I probably will not test before then, only because of the risk of a false BFP due to the Ovidrel, and because I don't want to psyche myself out. I hate how my heart starts to beat out of my chest every time I take a test, whether or not I even THINK there's a possibility of being pregnant. It makes me anxious to even think about testing right now haha :)

I'm still suuuper nauseous, my nipples are sore, my boobs only hurt when they get smushed against something (a hug, our dogs, etc.). I haven't noticed any fatigue, but my ovaries have hurt like hell. Mainly the left one, which is crazy to me since none of my follicles were a good grade on that side. 

I read online that eating the core of a pineapple (just one slice a day for 5 days) can help with implantation due to the bromelain in it so I figured why not try it! I'll pretty much try anything right now. I tried to eat 1 tiny circular piece of the core starting on 1dpo, but on top of hating pineapples to begin with, I got to the third small bite (trying to choke it down) and actually started to throw up in our kitchen sink. So, I'm going to try the pineapple SLICE today (not the core) since it still has bromelain in it, just not as much, and see how that goes. I figured I'll just choke it down and hope I don't lose it!

Anway - I always leave my posts with a picture and it just so happens that I made the picture for this post, and I pinned it to my infertility board on Pinterest if you want to save it! Its from a book by Kathryn Mackel called 'The Surrogate' - Which isn't too bad so far. Here's my pinterest:
http://www.pinterest.com/jennuuh/
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Good luck to everyone still waiting, just like me. 

 (I realize this goes outside the border, but its impossible to read if it doesn't!)

-J


(P.S. Nadine - I wrote in my letter that we don't have postcards here in Toledo, so on the original envelope I had drew a picture on it - Since it got sent back, I had to scrap the original envelope and while I had intentions to do it to the second envelope, I ended up sending it in post office envelope instead. Hopefully it gets to you soon - There is a 'good luck' charm of sorts inside - I hope you like it!)